Sunday, November 13, 2011

What to do?

Have you ever found yourself in a crowded room yet you still feel lonely? What about sitting next to your spouse, or significant other, yet you have nothing to say? What do you do when loneliness creeps in like a fog? You never really see it coming but you know when you're in the middle of it. That's where I think I find myself today. As a Christian, I know I'm never truly alone...I have Christ with me, in me, at all times. I guess that's also why loneliness can also be one of the forbidden topics Christians shouldn't talk about..."What!? YOU'RE lonely??? I just don't see how that's possible if you know Christ." But guess can happen and does happen thanks to our ever present enemy....he always seems to know when and how to swoop in and steal your joy.

After nearly 9 years of marriage, I still find myself struggling with loneliness sometimes. It is in these times that I'm constantly reminding myself that I am never alone (not an easy thing to remember when you're in the midst of the "woe-is-me" feelings). Christ is all I need, all I'll ever need, and more. He supplies my joy, my love, and my peace. Yes, I know all the right answers, I know what I'm SUPPOSED to say and how I'm SUPPOSED to try applying those thoughts and feelings to your personal life when you feel at your lowest (or close to it). Let me know how that works out for you...

I am married to the love of my life, my best friend. He is a wonderful husband, provider, and amazing father. I know anything, and I mean ANYTHING, I ask for, he gladly gives. But still after all these years, I'm still trying to figure things out. How do two totally different people communicate in a way that is pleasing to both parties involved, and keep Christ at the center? Ah, ha! The million dollar question.  My husband and I have a great relationship. He is my best friend, he makes me laugh to the point of tears, brings a smile to my face and butterflies to my stomach every time he walks into the room. Knowing the closeness of our relationship, still I struggle. Outsiders looking in tell me we are "two peas in a pod", "fit like a hand and glove", etc, and for the most part we do...yet we still have some struggles like any other couple. No one's perfect, right?

Jeremiah 29:11