Have you ever found yourself in a crowded room yet you still feel lonely? What about sitting next to your spouse, or significant other, yet you have nothing to say? What do you do when loneliness creeps in like a fog? You never really see it coming but you know when you're in the middle of it. That's where I think I find myself today. As a Christian, I know I'm never truly alone...I have Christ with me, in me, at all times. I guess that's also why loneliness can also be one of the forbidden topics Christians shouldn't talk about..."What!? YOU'RE lonely??? I just don't see how that's possible if you know Christ." But guess what...it can happen and does happen thanks to our ever present enemy....he always seems to know when and how to swoop in and steal your joy.
After nearly 9 years of marriage, I still find myself struggling with loneliness sometimes. It is in these times that I'm constantly reminding myself that I am never alone (not an easy thing to remember when you're in the midst of the "woe-is-me" feelings). Christ is all I need, all I'll ever need, and more. He supplies my joy, my love, and my peace. Yes, I know all the right answers, I know what I'm SUPPOSED to say and how I'm SUPPOSED to think...now try applying those thoughts and feelings to your personal life when you feel at your lowest (or close to it). Let me know how that works out for you...
I am married to the love of my life, my best friend. He is a wonderful husband, provider, and amazing father. I know anything, and I mean ANYTHING, I ask for, he gladly gives. But still after all these years, I'm still trying to figure things out. How do two totally different people communicate in a way that is pleasing to both parties involved, and keep Christ at the center? Ah, ha! The million dollar question. My husband and I have a great relationship. He is my best friend, he makes me laugh to the point of tears, brings a smile to my face and butterflies to my stomach every time he walks into the room. Knowing the closeness of our relationship, still I struggle. Outsiders looking in tell me we are "two peas in a pod", "fit like a hand and glove", etc, and for the most part we do...yet we still have some struggles like any other couple. No one's perfect, right?
Jeremiah 29:11
Love your blog....and I so understand where you are coming from in this post. It is weird to think other people actually have the same issues, but I guess we really all face them in some way or another in a world where in rains on the just and the unjust...and I never seem to have an umbrella:_ Thank You Jesus for being with us in times of loneliness, and always bringing brothers and sisiters in Christ together to love and encourage each other in our struggles and to laugh when we don't feel like laughing:)
ReplyDeleteThis comment has been removed by a blog administrator.
ReplyDeleteLove reading your blogs, Kristi. It's like listening to you. It sounded like on the day it was written, you should have had some porch time--we coulda built a fire and done kareoke!
ReplyDeleteEven though I think you and Jason are close to perfect, you know He is perfecting both of you. And He brought you together to become one for His purposes. That molding is sometimes difficult, but necessary and you both do it so well. You may not see it, but you do. Hey--I'm still trying to figure out what you'd call Bruce's and my 'one!' Too funny! But keep posting....I love reading them!
Mama