Ah! The first day of school. Wow! I can't believe it. Kristian starts 9th grade (high school!) today and Courtney starts Kindergarten. My, oh my, how time flies!
I awoke at 6:00 this morning to be sure I was up and about when Kristian left for school...wanted to be sure to tell him 'bye'. Also, wanted to have enough time for myself...emails, quiet time, journal time, etc...before Courtney woke up and we started her school day. After Kristian left, I gathered my things to begin my quiet time. I like to write in my journal before beginning my bible study...I know, I know...I MIGHT have that backwards but so far it's worked out well for me. As a matter of fact, the Lord has used the journal writing time to point out verses to me that little did I know, I needed to read for that day.
I, for one, am someone who never really knows where I'm supposed to be when I open God's word. I struggle with knowing where to begin in my bible study time...what verses the Lord wants me to focus on that day. Does anyone else struggle with the same thing? Anyway...I found with the last journal entry that the Lord uses that time to show me verses. The journal I use has a different verse written at the top of every page and I've found that the last two entries (today included) the verses at the top of the page fit so well with the entries I've written that day and laid bare before the Lord. Here's what I mean:
Today's entry focused on the first day of school for the kids. Kristian is off to High School and Courtney will begin Kindergarten home school today. My prayer for both of my children is that the Lord would guide their steps and thoughts as they walk through the day; that He would help to remind them who they are in Him. That He would also guide me as I schooled Courtney this year; to give me the wisdom and knowledge to teach her the way He would have her to learn; that my words would be His words and that He would give her the knowledge to understand what she is learning. I prayed against the inadequate feeling I have in teaching Courtney, although, I strongly feel this is what the Lord would have me to do for her. Above all else, I prayed that the Lord would be with all of us as we walked through today...that He would guide our paths.
With that said, know what today's verse was in my journal? Deuteronomy 5:33 (NIV) "Walk in all the way that the Lord your God has commanded you, so that you may live and prosper and prolong your days in the land that you will possess." Wow! Awesome Lord! How amazing it is that you would send this to me as an encouragement to my soul! It still blows my mind that the Lord of the universe hears my prayers, hears the silent longings of a mother's heart and answers ever so gently in the way only He can. What a mighty God we serve!
"Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth, would care to know my name, care to feel my hurt? Who am I, that the bright and morning star, would choose to light the way, for my ever wondering heart?...I am YOURS!" I am a mother, a wife, a friend, a sister, a daughter...but more importantly, I am a HIS! A child of the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. A princess adopted by the Holy Spirit and loved beyond words. When my heart cries out to you, oh Lord, you answer with a love and truth only YOU can provide. Just in time, Lord!